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Hanging Out with Michael Jackson

Michael wasn't just "The Man in The Mirror;" Michael was the mirror. You won't see the light in Michael, if you don't recognize it in yourself. You won't decode the message unless you know what you are looking for or understand what you're looking at. You have to resonate. You won't get Michael's invitation unless you understand that "we are the world" and "you're the chosen one." You have to be in touch with your Inner Michael.


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A Letter to the "Sparkle People" MJ admirers who wrote to me...

If you went to my blog "One Wordsmith" (dot) com ... then you know that as a writer I take on some interesting subjects. I write to "simply change the world."

I've taken some interesting journeys in my life as well, some pretty outrageous risks and dared to dream of making friends with "the enemy" and then collaborated with them to destroy weapons of mass destruction. I have drunk Vodka with those from a country who vowed to annihilate me and my countrymen with nukes while someone in that very country saved the world from nuclear destruction (read the story- "Not On My Watch" at One Wordsmith.)

I have hung out with Tibetan Monks in private audience with His Holiness the Dalai Lama, done Satsang with Shri Shri Ravi Shankar, spent a weekend wtih Michael and Rickie Beckwith, studied with many spiritual teachers and learned from many Shamans from different traditions. I have been so fortunate in having some amazingly spiritual mentors and teachers in my life and I thought I knew what love felt like. But I have never witnessed or been in the kind of embrace that has made its way into my world these days through my encounter with Michael Jackson fans. I am awestruck at the stunning heart and hope that comes from the "Sparkle People" which is my new name for Michael Jackson admirers and fans. You are a Force to be reckoned with! A power for LOVE in this world like I have never witnessed! Here is my message to you...

I received so many touching responses to my column and piece about Michael Jackson; your comments brought tears. Thank you. Sharing the writings about Michael represents a leap of faith and sidestepping writer's performance anxiety that comes with taking the risk to stand up and take the path that is the just and true one even though it may provoke uninvited drama. I am humbled and touched by your responses and how raw and genuine they are. Some of you took the risk to write and share your deepest self and I am very honored by your trust. You all have no idea how you have helped to restore my hope. I feel the loss of Michael too. On many levels. Some of you have asked questions or raised issues that I will try to personally respond to as soon as I am able. Until then, there is a collective message that I sense I might share...

Many of you wrote to say that you are having a surprising and acute reaction to the loss of Michael and you are puzzled by it. Your stories are similar. You are also feeling some kind of urge or impulse that you don't understand. There is a reason and an explanation...

I was trained in two non-traditional seminaries and ordained in a seminary with mystical training. My education has included metaphysics, mysticism and esoteric traditions, energy work and working with "fields." My career began as a nurse and it was the miracle of the human body and the psyche that led me on a lifelong spiritual quest. I have been in training with shamans for about 6 years now, have been initiated into several traditions and have reached a level of understanding that traditional doctoral programs do not offer. Not all of what goes on in this life is visible or occurs completely in the physical realm. Complex dimensions and realities interpenetrate what we call physical "reality." There is a metaphysical reality that lives coincidentally with the manifest or material world. There are energies, energetics and frequencies that live in this invisible world that can be felt acutely by those sensitive enough to "tune in" to the "vibe." A Healer and empath all my life, I too feel it acutely. Collectively. I also feel your pain. It is deep and complex. And yes, for you and for me, "the pain is thunder."

There are those on the planet who are the peacemakers, the revolutionary evolutionaries, the placeholders for Love, the keepers and holders of the Light. The Dalai Lama is the most recognizable, prominent and visible one at this time and the list includes Desmond Tutu, Barack Obama and others. And believe it or not-- some of Madonna's work embodies light. Others less known are Shamans, aboriginals from many cultures, medicine men and women, native peoples and those obscure heroes who go quietly about their work in the world of holding the light for humanity. Lady Diana was a very public keeper and placeholder for the light. Martin Luther King was, Gandhi was. As was Michael. There are also animal species holding unconditional love to share it with humans so that humans may learn by their example.

In this period in history, light is being infused through the medium of film. Michael knew this and I believe he was contemplating his own film contribution/s when he passed. Film would have been his next project, I'm sure. It appears he recognized the potential in film. Movies like "Lord of the Rings," "Star Wars," "Chronicles of Narnia," the Harry Potter films and others embody and communicate light. While I haven't seen the movie yet, the trailers indicate that the new movie "Princess and the Frog" may also have it. As "Michael's army" you may get some relief from the overwhelming sorrow by watching some of these films. You are listening to his music and trying to recapture his essence. Yes, his essence is in his music but it is also in you. That is part of Michael's legacy-- for you to hold his light now. And for you to come to own it. I meant it when I said "Tune in to your Inner Michael."

The benevolence in sorrow is letting it have its way with you and experiencing it fully so that will "crack open" your heart. The mystical poet Hafiz explained this well. This kind of flooding heartbreak clears the way for a high game- for high compassion. Michael's life and work breaks your heart-- deliberately. It is not easy spiritual work but it is yours for you are a fan-- more deliberately than you know. It is a high game you play. Especially now.

Michael anchored a great deal of light and certain energies on this planet. The energy he held has now been released onto the planet and that is part of what you feel. You feel the loss of Michael the individual, the entertainer, the light being, the holder of hope. The energy feels like and is, in some sense, dissolution. But it is still here and as his "army" of fans, it is your job now to hold the light for him, and for you, and for the world-- finding a way to share it for the spiritual evolution of humanity. This is a metamorphosis and you are in the midst of it.

Many of the letters I received were from "new fans" or fans who lost track of Michael and found him once again after his death. And some insisted they are "loyal" fans who have been MJ fans for years or decades. Some said they feel guilty for either waiting so long to reacquaint themselves or for missing his message altogether for not knowing of his work. In the realm of spirit and spiritual things, there is no concept of time as we understand it. There is no distance. All is here. All is now. The ego of course takes pride in its being "right" or "loyal" but the spirit doesn't recognize such things. It doesn't matter when we awaken it only matters that we do.

I too, feel some of this same regret having waited so long to reconnect with his work. I was a young single mom trying to navigate through a world that presented drugs, gangs, violence, drinking and early sex to my children as potential paths they might take. Instead I took them to "Hands Across America" that Michael helped to organize and we played and sang "We Are the World" in our home. We were on board. My daughter and I were involved in the Peace Child project and I was working with Russians as a citizen diplomat trying to forge peaceful relationships with the "enemy." My children grew up with Russians and with a Peace Activist mother.

I grew up with the Jackson Five and my children grew up on Michael’s music. Then I lost track of him as my life became busy with my career and the Russian-American Sister Cities project. Eventually I wrote the grant and we traveled to Russia to establish the social infrastructure necessary to move forward with the START II Cooperative Threat Reduction Treaty and the decommissioning of chemical weapons. We worked with the Russian and American military, with Healthcare, Physicians for Social Responsibility, educational and other civilian organizations to build the first chem-weapons decommissioning facility in Russia. Ironic that I lost track of Michael during those years because I know what it is like literally, to be a "stranger in Moscow." I too wandered those streets deliberately alone.

As a minister, peacemaker and metaphysician who is myself an empath, I empathize with those of you who feel an overwhelming loss. I feel it too. Michael's passing also infused and released a great deal of grief into the field of the planet. You are also processing this collective grief and the loss of light coalesced in him.

Make no mistake, Michael's hand is in this. His Spirit is also very much here and alive. His leaving was likely a soul contract. It was one more way that Michael found to serve; staying might not have served the world nearly as well and perhaps Michael new this. He left around the Summer Solstice- a most auspicious time. He sacrificed much. All for Love. All for the world. All for us.

There are no mistakes and everything is in Divine order. Watch closely while this all unfolds. Pay attention. Hold Michael's light which has now become yours.

I am so moved by my own journey and yours and what I have learned since his death! By what I have recognized. The research has revealed some fascinating things that have deeper meaning when looked at through a different lens. Thank you so much for your responses to me. You all hold so much LOVE! It is palpable. I would like to continue to research and if you are interested, I may share more of what I have learned and know in the future.

One person asked about what I meant by "Michael Jackson embodied Light, Shadow, Bright Shadow, the Divine Feminine, the aggressive masculine and androgyny." The answer to that is a whole other article and will take another writing to accomplish. That is the only way to do justice to the question. Since you asked, that tells me it may be really important to share. But I can't do it cavalierly in an email; I will take some work to write it because I sense it is an important piece of who Michael was. I will share it later with you if you are interested. Please let me know your thoughts and responses.

And please know that you are not alone and that this journey is purposeful. I send you angels and wish you comfort along the way when it is needed in order to keep on. Michael would want that.

Never stop shinning. You are the change. You are the world.


Lujan Matus said...

Absolutely I couldn't agree with you more. We are in the midst of a quickening; a metamorphosis. He held down the light and now transmission is occurring. It is up to each individual to ascend through this recognition and lift and transform planetary consciousness.

MJsHeart said...

Thank you so much for this blog and for creating this site dedicated to Michael! I am deeply inspired by all your writings and look forward to following you here.

Although I have connected with many wonderful & loving MJ Fans on this journey of discovery, I still feel quite alone sometimes in my own personal experience and in my quest to understand what's happening within me. Staying connected to Michael through his music, videos and writings has strengthened my belief in this soul awakening of mine, but I still seek understanding, validation, and enlightenment from a source outside myself. I pray often and I receive answers & messages from God & Michael frequently. Finding you here has been one of those answers to prayer, I believe!

I was one of the "Sparkle People" who wrote to you in December, responding to your blog about your experience of seeing the movie "This Is It." Although I didn't fully expect a personal response from you, I was curious to know if you received my message and what your thoughts were. This blog answers the question for me beautifully - THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart!

I am especially comforted by your words..."It doesn't matter when we awaken it only matters that we do....Make no mistake, Michael's hand is in this. His Spirit is also very much here and alive... everything is in Divine order. Watch closely while this all unfolds. Pay attention. Hold Michael's light which has now become yours...And please know that you are not alone and that this journey is purposeful. I send you angels and wish you comfort along the way when it is needed in order to keep on. Michael would want that." You give me hope, validation and clarity of purpose and vision! God Bless You!

I invite you to read a journal entry I made on Christmas Day while I was on retreat. It's called "Christmas Sun." I shared it with other MJ Fans and would be honored if you could find the time to read it. Here's the link which will take you directly to my posting:

I am definitely interested in reading your piece about "Light, Shadow, Bright Shadow, Divine Feminine, aggressive masculine and androgyny."

PLEASE keep the blogs coming! You have an amazing gift and your light, your insight will help us through this!! The more people who become aware of your site, the more your gift will inspire. I will send a message to my friends on the Tribute Portrait website with a link to your blog site, so we can spread the word!

Thank you once again, with L.O.V.E.

Anonymous said...

thank you so much for your words. by all means, keep going, write what you intuitively know and discover. your words bring great comfort to me personally and to others who are struggling to feel, to hold, to DO SOMETHING with this great pain, tears, grief, sorrow, and joy. when you spoke of being shattered, of being broken open, how true. sometimes it feels as if now, six months later, the harder work really begins. please keep writing. love to you,
virgo from OR

VindicateMJNow said...

I love what you wrote. You express yourself so beautifully. I was 1 of those people who paid more attention, &, quite honestly, became really engrossed in who he was as a person & his message. You're correct in saying that Michael had a light, &, now, it's our turn to hold the light.

AMY GRACE said...

I am so touched by all of your posts. This whole blog and the phrase "Inner Michael" is truly beautiful and so right on.

When I had my last psychic reading, I was also told that "Michael anchored a great deal of light on this planet." and it disappearing was a part of why I and so many others felt so grief stricken...about someone we didn't even really know. Everyone, whether consciously or not was feeding off of this energy. Michael was a beacon of light on this planet and for all the people living on it. His passing was a great loss to all.

I particularly love you words "You won't see the light in Michael, if you don't recognize it in yourself." How true. Thank you for what you are doing here, for spreading the good in Michael, which in turn spreads light to all who read it. Much love to you.

~Amy Grace

Niamh said...

When I read what you said about sorrow cracking open the heart, I was dumbstruck. That is exactly how I feel. And since I hadn't followed Michael in years, this devastation I've been feeling has shocked me. But I also truly feel what you said next; that this opens the way for high compassion. Since Michael's passing I have found myself to be hypersensitive and emotional; it's like I feel others' pain (even something I see on tv for instance) as my own. It is inspiring me to help others. Reading your words gives new meaning to all my experiences.

MJ said...

The pain is thunder. Yes it is. I am a fan. I joined the Michael Jackson Tribute Portrait (MJTP) and I felt it there too.
When Michael died I felt a strong sense of pain-loss. I asked myself why I am I so depressed. I cried as I heard the news of his death. By the time of his memorial I had become a flood. At first I asked myself why was I so devastated?
I asked my friends and one told me that in the Mayan calendar my totem is the Solar White Mirror and I am a mirror sort to speak and I was reflecting and feeling what the collective was feeling.
So I began check in with myself. What I mean is, I would ask is it my emotions or is it what I am feeling from the collective?

And yes we are feeling the dissolution of his energy too as you have already written.

I wont dismiss that Michael is my mentor. I met so many fans there and the energy the vibration is so strong and loving. Being online at MJTJ became a ritual for me. One that helped to heal my pain.

Personally the world is at a stage of quickening but not destruction. The change the Mayan speak of is not the end of times but an end of this way of running the world. Lets face it the macho way has brought us to near destruction.

Its too bad that the media did not understand this man,how could they?So what we fear we destroy.
I feel, believe and know that the vibration or attunement of this earth is changing and will transcend to a new cycle. The calendar ends but not time itself. That is the change of 2012.

What some call Indigo children will change the world not judge it.They are here to perpare the way.Michael was one.(indigo)He was ahead of his time,as usual.
Now after reading your blog I ask myself are the earthquakes and tsunamis MaMa Gaia way of expressing her loss of her biggest "fans" or he most vocal son?

I must thank you too in lifting my spirits-soul talk is what I needed and you are a voice of that.

love u more,
Mari jo